At Vassar due to the good graces of Emily Mendelsohn and Powerhouse; we’re among but not of – a small, hospitable space carved out for a workshop of Emily’s Maria Kizito, and Mia Rovegno’s Burnt Umber. Word on the street is that we’ll be joined by Alison Russo today (Drunk Still Drinking).
Some clarifying thoughts emerge –
A reminder that we’re not putting on a show but manifesting a memorial action – a contemplative occasion centered on genocide.
Five things are irrelevant to the process as sources of anxiety – money, understanding, friendship, Mardi Gras, and Easter.
Money – for contemplation, the available resources are the appropriate resources.
Understanding – The plays whirl and stand outside of themselves (in the company of other plays) to exhaust the imagination and remove obstacles between what is original in us and what is original in genocide. We won’t understand, we’ll be-with.
Friendship – Lacking money and rationale, we build on the basis of good will in community. In order for this barter to remain in tact, we operate without the authority of preference; we’re not doing favors out of kindness, we are functioning in an economy dedicated to discernment. In moving beyond understanding we’ll give offense to people who rightly and presently require it.
Mardi Gras and Easter – the reality we’re trying to depict is Lent; it gains its meaning in the context of preparation and redemption – but Lent is often looked at (when it’s looked at) as a void or passage, rather than recognized intimately as a real place.
And more from Osuna!
Saint Isidore says: “Thought brings forth pleasure, pleasure bears consent, consent gives birth to deed, deed to habit, habit to necessity, and necessity brings despair into the world.” (121)
So we could apply to those who desire spirituality the saying about those slightly educated who utter profound maxims: “He said more than he meant,” or “He said more than he knew.” Thus, people with intense desire crave more than they understand because the understanding has not yet understood what the heart desires. The apostle says, regarding this: “The Spirit helps us in the weakness of our operation, for we do not know what we are to request in prayer as is proper but the Spirit himself implores for us with unutterable groanings.” [Rom. 8:26-28] (310)
The other manner in which God teaches those who approach him is without speech or interior operations. (321)
Do not be astonished if spiritual consolation can be desired for an evil purpose because those who are learned in the matter explain that nothing exists that cannot be used wrongly. (325)